I have wondered for a long time if I should share this evolving experience with you. Since having listened to other people who have gone through a similar evolutionary process has really helped my own integration over the years, I decided to share this special shift in my life with you.
Once upon a star, I felt the longing to know what it is like to be human. I can tell you that much that it’s the heart that counts. The moment my heart opened everything changed. I felt mySelf again.
So far I had danced to feel mySelf, to feel alive, and to feel a sense of home. I had a near-death experience at the age of two. It was home, in a field of light and love and around loved ones. Dance kept that connection to home alive.
May 4, 2006, I noticed this most beautiful spirit in the corner of the room. I asked my friend and mentor at that time who that wondrous being is. He replied, “Consider that this is you.” I could not quite comprehend the importance. It has since been a magical journey with many waves of karma to be cleared. At some point, I could experience this sweet spirit more often, communicate with her, be guided and held.
This has been an extensive journey of personal transformation through continuous spiritual certification training and mentoring that actually started way back in my twenties. Over and over I had to courageously face myself, my shadow, and all of my unpleasant patterns including the socially accepted ones. It has taken enormous courage, compassion, and forgiveness to be on this journey which continuous. Humility is what it takes to bring light and shadow together in love.
When I met my Guru (in India a word that depicts the tradition of channeling unconditional love from teacher to students), I felt that same sense of love and light again that I experienced during the near-death experience.
At some point, I was able to feel this spirit that so far seemed to be separate from me, actually inside of myself. First experiences were magic and I got to understand that this spirit was me in another dimension. Initially, I was only able to hold the experience for about 5 min. This was all so beautiful that my whole endeavor went into practicing embodying this beautiful spirit that really was me. As it is if more light is being poured into a container, more of the dust of personal issues come to the surface to be dealt with, so another wave of purification occurs. The spiritual path does take endurance and commitment.
Finally, Sept 16, 2017, in a moment of immense gratitude and love to my Guru, the Divine Mother, my heart burst through and I got to experience myself fully in the light of and as this sweet spirit that I had often felt before. The enormous amount of love that I experienced as myself was and is limitless. Nothing else really matters on Earth existence besides anchoring love and light. This includes ourselves. This love and light of our true essence need to first be anchored into our bodies and into our own lives. Then we can transmit and share it with others.
The practice of love starts within, in our own hearts. Since that experience, I have had my main focus on embodying this love and shower of light into my daily existence. A couple of years of intensified purification that followed have made it possible to completely die to the idea of my individual personality with it’s attached story. I am now resting more in my eternal Self. My former personality is like a fading memory. I get to consciously choose now to create a new and more loving personality. Integrating the layers of being eternal while living this embodied life is an adventure. It’s the beginning of a new path, while in a nutshell there is no path and never has been. There are only love and the bubble that consensus reality calls life on Earth.
Once in a while, my surrounding appears real again, but usually, I see through the veil, understanding that this field that is called reality is a projected dream, meant for us to learn and purify. It is a field to learn the language of love and compassion. Forgiveness is a good signpost. Gratitude completes the healing.
It is the longing that will take you home. Embodiment is an adventure.
As magic as all this sounds, the waves of clearing and purification continue from personal topics to collective ones. What is different is that I see it like taking a bath, a daily happening of cleansing, there is no holding on, there are only waves.
My life’s focus is now on how to best share this passage in support of your shift into your true essence of love and light, I am here for you with support, compassion, honest reflection, and transmissions of light frequencies.
My calling is to lead people into freedom. This means you!
Wishing you a blessed life filled with magic and angel sparkles!
In love and light,
Dr. Susheela Devi